ok guys so... you may no longer know me as Amy, law student. I am un-enrolling today! I have no problem working hard, and it is not an issue of grades b/c i did fine last semester... it all has to do with the fact that i do not want to HATE what im doing for the rest of my life. You may ask, why did i even go to law school? And i may answer: i have no fucking clue! i guess the appeal of a scholarship and haveing a plan for the rest of my life was too enticeing to turn down, so much that I overlooked the fact that I am not interested in the law whatso ever. This decision came about once i returned back to school this week, i felt suffocated. I started crying all the time (again.... i did this a lot last semester and wanted to drop out in the middle of the semester, but the prosect of being a quitter was not appealing), and started to go back into the stressed, bitchy, depressed version of myself, not a good way to be. I know i have made the right decision, and im only out a $4000 loan...not bad(b/c of the scholarship).
Now, your question may be, what now?? that is what i am looking into. I have been researching being a speech therapist in a school which requires a 2 year masters plus an additional 1 year of undergrad courses either taken in conjunction with the masters or before you begin it. I am taking the GRE next week (yea i know, I'm crazy) and figuring out my options. Who knows i might spend the summer making money in mexico, or i might have to move back home, or i might start taking art classes and become a bartender while taking those undergrad classes next year, but i will NOT be taking law school classes THANK GOD. I am not meant to be a lawyer and i am quitting that law clerk job today (after only workign for 5 hours).
If feel liberated, a new year, a new me. Who says you have to know everything at 22? i certainly do not, but one thing i do know--> being a lawyer is not for me (and if i ever change my mind with in the next 2 years i can enroll w/o reapplying and get my scholarship back).
As far as ryan goes... whole nother story. Now that we are "on a break" b/c of the distance, we are talking much more and he is coming superbowl weekend/our one year... what can i say i wanna see him and i know i will have a great time when he's here :).... ahhh first loves
WOW long message, but jam packed. btw... erin i LOVE your story and laughed out loud in front of my computer (dont u love when that happens?). And Lo never knew there was so much to know about cheese...mmm i like cheese.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
2 comments:
Good for you, Amy!! If law school is not what you want, then there is NO point in being miserable just so you don't "quit". I'm sure that you will find out what you want....the speech therapy thing sounds really cool and i think you would be good at it.
I don't know what things are like with ryan right now, but i really hope that you come back here to visit soon. :) i like when we play!
Wow Amy. Quite the change. Glad to hear this revalation of happiness came to you! It'll be interesting to see where your life takes you next. And we'll know, because of your great blogging dedication.
Happy weekend.
Post a Comment